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Tuesday, 11 August 2015

As time goes by... the realization...that ... 
the familiar faces whom  had been there for me ..
either had passed on.. or had to go thru stages that i knew..
and dread ..
They are the ones whom i held my heart and my memories..
The loved ones that are still here.. are more precious as there are 
so few of them..
How can i not feel affected and saddened...
As that been said..
I'm gonna chose from now on to have flashbacks/memories in my 
only of the familiar sounds.. smell..laughter..smiles..gestures..
I do not want to be weight down with the unnecessary 
bitter memories.. which either been pounded on me or perceptions
of people who chooses not to believe in me as they think they know me well.....
Isn't life  too short?
I wish I could tell them to make happy memories ...even if it's short lived hold to 
them as long as u not mind the setbacks that surely one 
day u might have to go thru it..
I wish i could tell them.. do not do the things u would not others do to u..
we do not live in the past.. that is why it's called the present n the future..
I wish i could tell them .. pls do not take anyone for granted or 
of all the blessings how small it can be..Hey, whatever we think we have or own 
doesn't really belong to us.. 
Right now.. all I can do is to make doas for the loved ones that had passed on..
And make doas for the loved ones that I still held dear..



Wednesday, 17 June 2015

Ramadhan Mubarak dear all.. 

Please forgive me if i have hurt you in anyway..

May you have a blessed Ramadhan :)

Tuesday, 10 February 2015

I'm not like a candle who burns for other's..
be it for loved ones or a stranger..
such like what some perceived me to be.. 

We all crossed path fated by Allah..
There is always a reason to it..
Some instantly connected as such our souls
were once connected before..

It's just that i believed..
Life is precious and when you have lost many loved ones you realize each day is a gift.. 
Especially when at times those loved ones were your rock 
and had your back in good and bad times..
The yearning for them mounting especially at times like this..

All around trudging in this dunia..
what i only see are the ones
who chose to take things for granted..
Either loved ones or just even simply small blessings..
Or either they prefer to live in the past and won't let go..
However i have tried to reach but the feelings are not reciprocated
The hardened heart..

How can someone thrive if there is no support and encouragement?
as they cannot understand what i meant as they have not
lead the life of always grappling alone..
It can be crippling when u tied down with assortment of
things and health..
If only they know and understand..   


Saturday, 7 February 2015

Sambal Ikan Bilis and Kacang 

Cooked this when i missed my mum. She used to cook this when i was little...

Wednesday, 28 January 2015

"I define connection as the energy that exists between people when they feel seen, heard, and valued; when they can give and receive without judgment; and when they derive sustenance and strength from the relationship."--Brene Brown

Thursday, 8 January 2015

Tried and tested :)

Rendang Padang Pedas credits to Nita Miss uCelallu

= bahan 

 @: daging kari 3 kg.

 @: santan kara kotak ukuran sedang 4kotak = bahan daun = 

@: daun kunyit 6 helai, hiris halus 4, lg 2 bland. 

@: daun salam 8.

 @: daun limau 10. = sangar =

 @: ketumbar biji 2 sudu makan.

 @: jintan manis 1 1/2 sudu makan.

 @: jintan putih 1 1/2 sudu makan. =

 bahan blend =

 @: cili kering 2 genggam, rebus dan tapis.

 @: cili padi (ikut suka ).

 @: bawang besar 6.

 @: bawang putih 8. Lengkuas 1 ibu jari.

 @: daun kunyit 2. Halia1 ibu jari.

 @: serai 3, kunyit hidup 1 ibu jari. Semua bland sampai hancur. # 

cara2nya # 
@: panaskan minyak masukan bahan yg diblend td, masak hingga 1/2 garing.

 @: masukan daging dan bahan daun gaul sekejap. Lepas tu masukan santan dier tak yah masuk air tau gaul rata lg.

 @: beri garam, dan perasa jika perlu.

 @: masak hingga daging empuk, kalau saya tak suka daging dier lembek